Over the past year or so, I have come to the harsh realization in my mind that I’ve had a “Predetermined Destiny With Hypocrisy” as my old blog rival, “Lesbian” Deb, wrote years ago regarding my so-called "Christian" behavior and lack of compassion I demonstrated. That post, among others, always stuck with me through the years, and it has helped opened my eyes to the Truth about myself, and the crumbling foundation of Denver Bible Church where my family used to attend.
To begin, it would only be right to *set the record straight* (no pun intended), by publicly confessing my wrongdoings and openly apologizing to many bloggers whom I offended in Christ’s Name, but particularly, I want to apologize to Deb for how I mistreated her. If you once followed our blogs back in the day, you are all too aware of the "Constant Controversy" surrounding our posts as we became cyber enemies for years in a fierce battle of “Who's Truth?” as I tried to pound it into her soul and convince her that all “Sexual Immorality” is a sin according to God, while she battled right back and asked, “Is Homosexuality a Perversion?” While I may have been Biblically correct in moral principle, without wholesome words or sincere brotherly love, the message of Truth I delivered was tainted because of my quarrelsome conduct much of the time.
"And a servant of the Lord must not quarrel but be gentle to all, able to teach, patient, in humility correcting those who are in opposition, if God perhaps will grant them repentance, so that they may know the truth." - 2 Tim. 2:24-25
Over the past five years as I slowly vanished from the bloggerville to switch gears in life and refocus my priorities on family, Deb would frequently enter my mind as she always held a special place in my heart, and I knew deep-down that our paths would cross again one day. Well, that day has come much sooner than expected, which is a good thing. As I have grown and matured in the Lord, and distanced myself from Enyart’s ill-ethics, I have come to realize that my harsh approach and haughty spirit aimed high at not being “Nicer than God,” quickly degraded down to the low level of being way “Meaner than God” would ever dream to be.
"Love Your Enemies". (Of course, I do not consider Deb my enemy, never really did, and I would have her over for dinner & drinks any day of the week before I ever let an Enyart step foot in my house again.)
As recent unbelievable events manifested in my life, I was convicted that the way I treated Deb was mean, hurtful, and not pleasing to the Lord at all, so I decided to take a moment to send her a quick email as a sister in Christ to formally apologize for my “Holier than Thou” overly critical, confrontational and “Spiritually Dead Christianity” which did not produce the fruit of righteousness because I was often not “Walking in Love,” as she rightly pointed out. After she received my email message, as the gracious woman she is, Deb also offered her own apology to me for how she reacted, then we quickly reconciled our differences and forgave one another as Christ would want us to do. (We even spoke on the phone as friends discussing a recent tragedy in her family, which was nice.)
While Deb and I still disagree on homosexuality, we can agree on the love of God, and that I was wrong in my witness for Christ because of my narrow focus on her particular "sin" as though I were completely blameless. It should also be noted that Deb was right about Bob Enyart all along, especially when she alerted me to the unforeseen dangers in this post called, Child Abuse X-Pose, which has now come full circle in a twisted since of irony.
If it weren’t ironic enough that Bob Enyart (the convicted child abuser), made a false report against my innocent family out of revenge, yet much to his dismay, all charges and allegations were completely UNFOUNDED because God and the Government Social Workers have examined our lives and know we would never abuse our children in any way. It's also ironic that Bob was one of the main inspirations I had for starting this blog in the first place because I wanted to help expose all the great "knowledge" I was acquiring from his teachings, and now I plan to boldly speak out against him for all the wicked things he has tried to conceal.
“X-Pose the Truth” and built up the confidence to “win fruitless debates” online, I now look back and wonder how many hearts were hardened by me and his “followers” because our arrogant and loveless approach? And then, I wonder how that must deeply grieve the Holy Spirit, and it grieves my heart too, and humbles my spirit in shame, which is why I am so sorry for any contribution I had in causing anyone to reject the Gospel of Jesus Christ ~ Lord please forgive me for what I've done!
After my family became the object of Enyart’s cruel criminal attacks, I have witnessed cronies in his camp mindlessly parrot Bob’s psycho-babble with idiotic authority, and it royally disgusts me to no end. The good news is that it has helped me honestly reflect on my past online public persona, and much to my embarrassment, to the point where I am ashamed to have ever been associated with such foul human beings.
Most people would agree that Bob Enyart is a great Bible teacher and skilled at the art of debate, but the royalties end there as he is a perpetual failure at everything else in his life, especially the close relationships around him. As knowledge puffs up, pride tends to sinks in, and we all can have a tendency to lose sight of the Lord’s calling, as I once did. Just as a student becomes like his teacher (Luke 6:40), I became increasingly obsessed with disputes and arguments over words (1 Tim. 6:4), in a self-serving quest to be right and “win” the debate at all costs, with a shallow regard for who I might hurt in the process. Instead of pursuing righteousness, faith, love and peace out of a pure heart, as God says to do in His Word, I would oftentimes provoke discussions and start foolish disputes, knowing that they generate strife. (2 Tim. 2:22-23) Let that never be the case again, as I've seen the rotten fruit it produces.
I once boasted in Christ’s message of “Judging with Righteous Judgment” and forced-fed my views about “Hypocritical Love & Abhorring Evil” on Deb, the heathens and homosexuals, but then I realized that the real hypocrisy was well established in lives of Denver Bible Church members who were all very close friends to our family. Because of that, along with their busy-body behavior and outright betrayal, we withdrew ourselves from their fellowship and tried to avoid them, only to be publicly slandered and viciously attacked after leaving, in a sick attempt to try and "win us back" to the church - NEVER!
The lack of brotherly love and depraved level of apathy characteristic of DBC was so abhorrent that it can only be classified as a mind-control cult, especially as most members esteem Bob Enyart’s teachings above the words of Jesus Christ, though they are too blind to see it and too prideful to dare admit it. The Lord has helped us see the light, and we count our blessings that we were never fully apart of that collective cult, militant mob-mentality, which lacks understanding and is void of compassion and independent thought. Now more than ever, we are so thankful that we removed ourselves when we did, despite the painful retribution we continue to face, we still have no fear because we have the Truth on our side.
As we witnessed relationships rapidly deteriorating over the years at DBC because of misplaced priorities, perverse obsessions with meaningless debates, and the senseless drive to impose morality upon others without examining the hypocritical sins within their own lives, we have now seen come to pass what Scripture reveals about those who fall away from grace:
“For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine, but according to their own desires, because they have itching ears, they will heap up for themselves teachers; and they will turn their ears away from the truth, and be turned aside to fables.” - 2 Timothy 4:3-4
Sure, we could put signs up on mountains for a new world record, openly rebuke Dr. James Dobson for violating a pledge to God, then get locked up in jail on a "pro-life" stand for the unborn, picket abortionist’s homes on the holidays, or protest “homo pride parades”, and make everything in life a publicity stunt for attention, but if we lack the wisdom and love of Christ as a genuine motive for our actions, all those works amount to nothing more than a pile of filthy rags. Even with a hint of love, those works are rather piled high with crud anyway, and only helps advance the rise of atheism, IMO. If it weren't for my strong faith in the Lord, I would be completely turned off by the ignorance and hatred demonstrated by these people, including my former self, as so many people are.
Even though in real life my husband and I have poured out our love and devoted ourselves to ministering to the brethren, while seeking to live a life in obedience as a testimony to the Lord, we soon learned that all of our relationships were toxic as hell, as our past associations have come up to bite us in the butt and relentlessly stab us in the back. To make matters even worse, a so-called “Minister of the Lord” has abused his authority, whispered in secret to devise evil against us, and actively sought out to destroy my family after ruining all our close friendships.
"An ungodly man digs up evil, And it is on his lips like a burning fire. A perverse man sows strife, And a whisperer separates the best of friends." – Proverbs 16:27-28
So in an effort to restore our good reputation, and in pursuit of real righteous judgment, I am now devoting my online efforts to X-Posing the Truth about Bob Enyart as a Serial Relationship Killer, in hopes that the Lord brings his entire kingdom to shame, and calamity comes suddenly to all who follow him and cover-up his sins.
- By now we know that *KrookUSA* has no conscience, so they continue to "DO WRONG & RISK THE CONSEQUENCES."